I kind of had a strange night last night. Mostly it was nice, I went shopping and had chinese food with Kyle and then we went over to his friends house. There were just a lot of people there I didn’t know, but a lot of them were super nice and talked to me. I dont particularly like being around drunk people, and then I felt ignored. It ended with me having a bit of a breakdown, and I’m not sure why. I think pms played a part in it. I’ve just recently been getting tired of people telling me how ‘shy’ and quiet I am, like it’s something wrong. And then I wonder if I should be different, more out-going. So that led to me crying in Kyle’s arms… So unnecessary. But he calmed me down a lot, and told me wonderful things. 

I think 2012 will be a year to find myself a bit more, and become comfortable with who I am. I always thought I was until now. I need to get that back.